You and I were Meant To Fly

Celine Dion. I am listening to her. Stupendous voice. I envy...
Give Me.

Anyways, my dad left yesterday for Shanghai, China. He will be gone for three weeks. It will be kind of tough on the rest of us, because Mom will have to work all day now and of course I will have to spend more time at the restaurant to help. Stephanie is so nice. She offered to help on Friday and other days with her brother because of it.

Compassion. Some people preach it but don't practise it. Only arrogance. Ugh. Steph probably knows what I mean. Other people seem outwardly nonchalant but are truly the most compassionate inside. Namely one young man who spoke of compassion once as one of a list of I think it was three things that are especially important in high school. Can't stand that kid!! Worst thing is many people adore him! They are blind! He is considered humble but he is so damn arrogant. He is considered kind but he's inconsiderate and rude. He is also a hypocrite! He has an annoying whiny voice when he sings. SHUT UP!! I feel like screaming at him whenever he starts singing like he's got this phenomenal voice when in reality it sucks. I want to strangle him really badly. I hope he gets rejected from his dream school. Ugh I feel so terrible for saying this, but let's be frank. We all have our dark sides. This is mine.

So why am I feeling or at least typing such negative things today? Don't know. Nothing particular. Maybe it's because I am extremelty tired. It's past 1 am, but then I always stay up that late. At any rate, I feel very normal and not in a particularly bad mood. I think it's that word "compassion" that was brought up. Everytime I hear that wonderful word now, it feels tainted by him. He used it like it was one of his great philosophies in life. It makes me want to puke.

I read that Dollhouse play today. It was wondeful but so sad. Why did dear Nora have to leave her husband? They were such a dear couple. Of course it must have been terrible for her to discover this side of him and how easily he was willing tot cast her down to save his own reputation. Even with the social codes of the time...
But I believe he loved her deep down and had room to change.

Anyways I should get to bed. I am definitely getting more and more punctual with keeping up with this blog. It's fun! Depending on what mood I am in, I will create different types of entries. I get the opportunity to exercise all the shades of my strange, funny, nerdy, serious, goofy, deep, and yes some bad aspects too of my personality. ANd yes I know that the last sentence was not grammatically correct but at the moment I could care less.