COo coO biRdiE

"Cooooo coooo" cooed the little coo coo bird mournfully. That coo coo bird is me.

I coo tonight, mournfully. I could be in such high spirits. That is who I am. Why must some people be so negative? Why must some people be so ignorant and narrow-minded? WHY IN THE NAME OF FIRE, WATER, EARTH, AND WIND MUST THEY BE SO DAMN DISAGREEABLE and SENSITVE? Why do I care so much about other people and let their opinions, moods, and actions affect mine? Let me be an ignorant stone rock to live blissfully and unawares in my own little world of coo cooo coooing in joy and...loneliness. Much like that poem, dammit I studied it for AP English but the title escapes my memory. That poem where the man is envious of nonliving elements such as the stars and the ocean for their lack of insight and care for anything but themselves. This lack of understanding and of consciousness can be indeed something to envy. But I would much perfer to surround my self in pain and truth than to hide from it and live in ignorance. Perhaps I have not felt enough pain for I have been fortunate enough to have avoided confronting the worst miseries and atrocities of mankind and this world.

Hah, Caitlin SNowy was saying how I sound unnatural when I cuss today, because that's just not me. Not that I cussed profanely. ALl I did was use the word Damn when I was describing something... what was it? Let me think a moment...I can't recall. WHat is this? Why do I keep forgetting things? I hope I am not contracting an adolescent version of the Alzheimers, but seriously irregular sleeping patterns and too much stress could, though very unlikely, bring about such a permanent decline in one's mental capabilities. Seriously though my life isn't all that stressful.

Here I deleted a whole bunch of crap. I didn't like what I wrote. Now it's a part of history. Bye bye bye.