Update necessary!

I look at my blog, unattended for so long. It sniffles sadly. Once upon a day its master looked upon it daily and always had so much to tell it. Now the master is too busy with other matters to mind the blog. UPDATE necessary!!

Yes indeed, senior year is a killer when it comes to stress. Never in my life have I found myself enclosed in the confines of my home, alone, in front of my laptop typing, thinking,and working so much. Essays for colleges and scholarships. Creepy, complicated financial aid forms that make me go, "HUH?? Just ask me in plain English what you want to know!! And stop repeating the same questions over and over on the same form and then repeating it some more on more required forms." And all those deadlines that I try so hard not to forget or lose track of. I just found out today to my horror that I had completely missed UPenn's deadline for Form 6 Financial Aid which was on January 1st!!! Dear me, I shall send it pronto Monday.

Plus I am so pissed off that when I called Princeton they told me they have not yet received my application that I had sent in early November. Yet when I check my KeyBank account I see that the check I had written for the application fee and sent with the application was cashed in. Course it is just a mistake of theirs and they said I could send it in again for no penalty but that is so much more work!! So I feel like being lazy and just forgetting about it since I am almost positive I wouldn't get in. It is just ripping holes on my insides because that is $65 application fee bye bye for not even a chance! I feel like I am wasting so much money and should have contributed it for tsunami relief instead.

Well I am determined to have all the financial aid forms completed and sent in this Monday. I have an interview for Yale tomorow. I am going to record the National Anthem acapella tomorow and send it in as an audition to sing for the state competition for BPA. That would be totally rockers if I could sing for them!! I Love it; I bet I could be really happy to have a career in singing. Then I can stop hurting my head thinking too much. It is just too bad that I have that special gene that suspends all mental diseases so I can't use that as my excuse.
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Dad got me that telescope I asked for! It is beautiful but ugly because I cant figure out how to use it. Or maybe it does work right but last few nights have been ugly cloudy night skies so I can't see anything and test my telescope with. The magnification is so huge that it is no fun to look at scenery with it-skies it is. But I bet it would look really pretty if I went to the mountains and looked at the scenery from afar like that. For my brother, Dad got like ten XBox games. My brother is obsessed with games. Even if I had all the free time in the world and didnt have to work on scholarships I wouldnt want to play those games like NBA thingy that he plays. I do love Age of Empires II, SimCities, and those types of games though.

Well today I applied to scholarships by WalMart and BestBuy, and yesterday I applied just on the last day for Gates Millenium, requiring a whopping 8 essays with enough room for 1000 words! I am considering doing that YES epidemiology scholarship which pays a potential of $50,000 but requires a very extensive research project equalling even 30 pages and my own research for data possibly. I still have to tweak and improve my projects for BPA and get working on the Robotics website. That Robotics website looks terrific; I am betting it could win first place this year. I am so excited about the game and Championships in Atlanta! But I am pretty sure that the Regionals are on the same weekend as Bedford Trade Fair so I would have to miss that to work on the Panda Garden booth. There was this really cute guy who worked on one of the restaurant booths last year though... And actually I love working at the Trade Fair. It is so lively and fun.

"wanna party haddy, wanna paint pretty murals, wanna sing my heart out to a crowd so populous, wanna crunch and push up myself to fitness, wanna sleep and eat luxuriously, wanna meet and make and strengthen friendships and a soul mate mayhap, wanna bounce up and down, wanna run away away away to college, wanna rip up all paperwork and indulge in childish pleasures once more, wanna go crazy happy" Speaks my id.