Trouble

I am the causer of trouble. I selfishly mess with people to tear up their relationships and all this for my own amusement. This is what I have been accused of. Maybe taking a stand in an issue to dispel injustice is stupid. Maybe I should have just kept mum and let things continue and one to live trusting blindly. Maybe idealism is naive.

Tonight I have much work to revise my research paper for BPA. I fell asleep before completing but three sentences yesterday. I don't think I did well on my physics test today and I got an 83 on my Calc quiz that I knew everything on. 3 freaking idiotic mistakes and down to a low B. Well, my grades have definitely fallen this quarter. I am trying to train myself not to care. It is hard to break out of this academic scholar mode. I figure out of all the things in life, grades are very unimportant and so are high school boy problems.

I don't really have a boy problem, cause I haven't been involved in any real romances nor have I tried to get involved in one. I have kept happily single biding my time waiting for the perfect guy and pushing aside any interested guys that don't fit my description of perfect. I figure it ain't worth the effort cause I have a very busy schedule and strict parents. But now I have quite abruptly discarded my approach to this. I don't need a perfect guy now. Just a good, fun, and relatively intelligent person to go to Prom with and maybe even a few dates. I just have a terrible innate tendency to want to turn away and hide from any interested guys or people that I am interested in.

HEck Lunch time is Now. Now is the time. I want a punching bag to vent on. Oh and I need to strengthen my arm muscles for push ups cause I can hardly do 20 anymore. That is sad.