Hmmm...DIFFUSION and PARTICLE LOCOMOTION

At exactly 12:12 am and 12 seconds and 12 miliseconds into the second I finish this sentence with a period.

Good tidings. I am currently...FRUSTRATED and...HAPPY and....EXCITED and ......GLOOMY and a whole bunch of other emotions jumbled up.
Maybe a little confused but at the same time very certain and confident.

Oh my blog has become a chore to maintain and a little too academic sounding. I guess private thoughts posted openly online just seems awkward and yet I was never one to too closely guard my privacy. I am kinda open I think. In fact I can be rather pushy with some of my thoughts and ideas.

Daily home life has changed a lot for me. Mom has never before spent so many hours in the home. My girlish brawls with her have seemed to stop, or at least they haven't happened in many months. It was not long ago when I, in my anger, wouldn't talk to her for days and even weeks at a time (I think a little over 2 weeks is my max). She has changed a lot. She is becoming more liberal like me. SCORE!
Well just yesterday I gave her a little makeup job. It was her first time wearing makeup save for a touch of lip color on special occasions and on her wedding day about 19 years ago. I like natural and pretty makeup, sometimes flirty lavender on the eyes. I put that on my mom. She definately did not agree with the flirty colors. I need more confidence to go bold with solid red lip color. Plus it looks kinda creepy I think.

Well this, and my mom is obstinately trying to learn English. I am her personal English tutor. Poor Mother went through a chapter of Nancy Drew in the Blade today in class and highlighted half the page as new vocabulary. The daMN writers need to get to the point and say "busy restaurant and shops" instead of "bustling shops and lively restaurants" cause it is "showing" adjectives and verbs like these that confuse practical English speakers.

She hissed. He mumbled. She grumbled. He whispered. She muttered. He murmured.
My word!! And it is this vibrant selection of small volume speech words that also confuse practical English speakers. They all whispered!! There and be done with it.
Well, ok. I do kinda imagine a different sound for each speech word.

Isn't it funny how we think in languages? What if I didn't know any languages? Why I could barely think but the most primitive of emotions. It is true. Language takes thought to a different level.
I don't think naturally in Chinese. I think in English and in pictures and on occasion I feel in a rush of emotions no words can do justice to.
But you know I can speak naturally in 2 dialects of Chinese (and very unnaturally in Cantonese) without having to "translate" it in my head like I have to for Spanish. Icky Spanish hurts my head to speak. I have to think too much about the grammar.

OMG Math and physics frustrates me. Oh and i want to cancel my Ap Calc AB registration. That frustrates me too. That is 82 bucks that I shouldn't have spent but then I would like to get out of the Calc final. And it doesnt even count for credit at Upenn so what is the point? I am taking BC Calc next year anyways. And BC calc will be the last math I ever taste. Statistics is also a requirement for my curriculum but lucky me did that last year and passed with a 5. Now I get to miss out on Microecon and Stats next year. That makes me happy. I am going to take Chinese, Spanish, naval military science, macroecon, anthropology, philosophy, math 104 (BC Calc), some writing class, management 100 and 2 other classes I haven't quite figured out yet. OMG I am so excited. Except I thought I was sick of academics ??